same song...over and over...

Lighting a fire,the size of God's kingdom in the sky,we survive,but we feel our greatest dreams have died,only one Mountain peak to climb....

The question...WHY

So many times we ask our selves "why? " Why did i do that? What did i took that path ? Why did i make that happen? Why did i let that happen? Why? it is not my fault. Why is he/she doing this?
The question "Why?" will always be my favorite one ...cause in the end ill always ask my self Why me?
I really cant find the answer to this question ...it is so...complex...its just god worthy .
I imagine myself in front of God asking him "Why me?" the only plausible response is ...None . Not even God know why he created me....so how can i believe in such a force.The true force that makes me survive in this wretched world is "me" .I am my own leader, my own healer, my own soldier,my own preacher, I am my own self. This is the only thing someone can't take it from you.They can steal your money, they can take your friends, they can wear your clothes, they can drive your car, they can make other people love them more. But you....you my friend are the most powerful force of nature.You are indeed more powerful as you become your inner self .
Our true face lies beyond this mask that we wear day after day, year after year.For you to see the world around you , you first must look in the mirror, and there my friend watch beyond the future, beyond the past, watch beyond you friends , family and foes and there ask yourself Why me?
" Am i just an album of influences? created by the near people i meet ,hang out with, live or die by, or the music and TV i watch, or fashion.... Imagine yourself without all these influences how would you be? how would you act? would you be a better person for you?..or for those close to you? What would you like to change? in the past or in the future?Carefully u must analyze your self to clearly see what you are....a farce of nature.
You must try and change to become a better person to yourself before being better to others.The past is the near future if you want to be proud of what u did , try to be proud of what you are planning to do.
I too also did a lot of stuff that i am not proud of, unfortunately a a lot of stuff and i dont have to become old to regret it...i already do...so i'm trying to see how may i change in the future , in this very moment so i would not regret it later.
Change is inevitable ...we all do change is some way...and You are the only one that can control this change so just make it worth.

Fairy tale

Have you ever made a sacrifice? Your own well being for something or someone? Well...i did...for someone.... and that someone made me do what i never thought about, brought me down on my keens on a hard cold rugged floor , in an empty room, feeling like a stranger in my own house, nothing looks familiar, i am trying but cant recognize anything, flashes of images hurl in front of me, a face with eyes i cant describe, surrounded by a light, almost unbearable , forbidden to watch but ready to take that chance to be the last .... yes its her..
Have you ever noticed that you care too much for a person or a friend ? Little by little u get attached to him/her, spend a lot of time together , and suddenly u have some feelings , out of nowhere but you don't know what to do.... would you just risk the friendship for something more? but you can't manage your feelings they haunt you every minute of every hour, every hour of every day and so on and so on .You get agitated around her cause you want her to know , to know you better, to hold her hand, to hold her body close to yours , to kiss her soft satin lips , feeling her closer makes your heart go berserk, you can't breathe, you can't move, you can't speak ,u ask yourself "is this a dream?" ...you open your eyes and theres nothing in front of you, shes already gone, only her scent from the perfume she worn remains in the cold dark room.....
So i ask you :"have you ever felt unconditional love?" i have , and when all your hopes and dreams fall apart bit by bit and in the end you always remain with a sour taste and your worn out feelings for someone that you might call the one, the one that you would have gave everything and anything to pass all bounds just to see a smile that would just light up the skies.
But we live in the real world....a cruel one that tests us at every corner, every time it can, but we hope one day at least for a hour or for a minute that our dreams might come true...sadly there are no fairy tales....